Kim ROCKS

Existing

Wed, 08 Oct 2003 16:35:48 GMT

Hey all
I'm sitting here in keyboarding class, finished with my work 30 minutes into class. We got our psychology test back today I got a 98%!!! The best i've ever done on a test. Thats not the real reason I'm writing though. I'm torn between two guys that I like. One has a girlfriend (yes you heard me correct) but they fight constantly and it always seems like they are going to break up but never do. The other doesn't have a girlfriend fortunately. I also told him last night that i have a crush on him like im some kid from high school. Talk about lame. But the good thing was that he didn't say anything bad, he only had nice things to say. When I told him I was embarassed to say anything (I've never told any of my crushes I actually had a crush on them til now) he told me not to be, and that he's glad i told him. I'll see him tonite, actually i'll see both of them tonite. This should be interesting.

Lonely

Wed, 17 Sep 2003 15:23:41 GMT

Last night me and the girls went down to hang out with some of the brothers (except me, i went along to see someone else). We had a good time down there, till some of them decided they wanted to go to the house and do stuff. Stupid me decided to stay where we were just because he wasn't going with us. Is that wrong??? Not only that but he has a girlfriend that he fights with constantly, it seems blatently obvious to me that their relationship isn't doing well, and kill me for thinking it but I really want them to break up.... I just feel like im wasting my time (nothing new), but I just can't let it go that easy. HELP

New Years........Alone once again

Wed, 01 Jan 2003 03:20:30 GMT

Hey all... Well its that time of year again when well....the year ends. And of course im sitting here on the internet at 10:15pm with nothing to do. My mother, her boyfriend, my grandmother and her friend are here in the other room playing old people games (ie Cards). Today was rather depressing and its not even over yet. I had to go with my sister to try on bridesmaids dresses for her wedding. Of course she's like a size 6, my brothers girlfriend (also a bridesmaid) is a size 8 and my cousin who's only a size 2 and thats too big for her. And then you have me.....i wont mention the size. Not only that, but im the youngest in my family, both my sister and brother are getting married within the next two years. True im still young but hey ive never even had a boyfriend. I haven't told my family i feel like a huge steamy pile of crap because of this because i dont want to upset anyone. Just once id like to have someone like my other siblings....maybe thats too much to ask for.

UGH

Sun, 21 Jul 2002 19:52:08 GMT

Hey all, haven't been on this thing in forever. But as for last night and someone not calling me back.... HE DID! YAY ME! Gotta run peace

Bonjour

Sat, 23 Feb 2002 22:24:07 GMT

Bonjour mon amis, comment tallez vous au jourd hui? Je suis Tres bien, merci. Tu as un vachez en ragee. Sorry thats all i know how to say in french. Anyway, just wanted to tell everyone goodbye in j-town. Kimmy's goin back to college tomorrow. Had a blast sitting in bed for the most part of my break coughing up one of my lungs, and having more snot come out of my nose than water over niagara falls. LOL sorry bout that, anyway hope everyone is doin aight, peace

funny quote4

Thu, 07 Feb 2002 15:19:19 GMT

Boycott shampoo! Demand the REAL poo!

thats all i have for now.
PLEDGING STARTS SUNDAY!
GOD I LOVE COLLEGE

funny quote3

Wed, 06 Feb 2002 20:02:39 GMT

A woman has the last word in any argument. Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

"Question: If you throw a cat out the window, is it considered kitty litter?" ~B.G.

"I'll bring the ruckus...after my noodles!" ~E

"We were mugged by Andrew Lloyd Webber!" ~Out of towners

What the FUUUCK is up?

Tue, 05 Feb 2002 04:20:52 GMT

Hey ya'll. What is up wit u. Not much here, gettin pretty damn excited that softball tryouts are tomorrow :(/:) Dont think ill actually make it all the way, but what the hell, its worth a shot. Goin to a party on Wed. Rush party on Thursday, Grafitti night at psi d on saturday, PLEDGING SUNDAY!!!! SOOO excited. Im pledging for Delta Chi Omega, the best damn sorority alfred has to offer! F.I.T.B.
Any wz just wanted to give a shout out to all the former "Denny's Goers" who are most likely depressed in our time of "restaurant lacking" UGH NO MORE MICHAEL. BYE BYE LEFT TO RIGHT, NO MORE NUTS... oh well, there is always friendly's ...

Forgot to add one to the list

Sat, 02 Feb 2002 18:24:38 GMT

Few more things to add...
My birthday is FEB 17!!
Valentines day is coming up :(
Chris's birthday is in March
Jenns birthday is in march
I will be home for my birthday guys!!! (problem is, no more denny's UGH)

Har Har Har

Sat, 02 Feb 2002 18:22:37 GMT

hello everyone. Im not dead, in fact i am quite alive! haha. Anyway, i just wanna tell everyone the news with kimmy...
1. I am going to pledge with Delta Chi Omega here at alfred!
2. Chris is coming over tonite...
3. I have a cold that just won't go away
4. Classes freakin suck (hard freakin mo fo's)
5. I MISS DENNY"S
6. Denny's is GONE.
7. Need cash for stuff
8. Nothing to do
9. Power outages suck...
10. Nothin else to say

Havent written in a while...

Sun, 09 Dec 2001 02:41:27 GMT

Hey everyone, everythin is goin fine here. Finals this week and next! :( Hope i do ok. Talked to chris tonite, hopefully ill see him before i go on christmas break, if not it is goin to be oooone hell of a fun time when i come home, hint hint. I also talked to sara(H) the other day, i hope that most of my j-town friends can go with us to edinboro to play some drinkin games!!!! YAY IM SOOOO EXCITED, i get to play my favorite game *AssHole* and kings. Im glad im not the only one that knows how to play....

Well the purpose of this message is to get some more friends on aol, i am in a little thing here to get more people on my list so i can beat my friend that has 173 friends, i have a depressing 32... Anyone who isnt already on my list (u know who u are) should give me your name, i need some buddies!

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Thu, 22 Nov 2001 04:35:23 GMT

Hello everyone, just wanted to wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving! It feels nice to be home in my own bed, but thats about it!! I wish a certain someone was here with me :( oh well. ANyway Have fun tomorrow, and just remember only a MONTH til Christmas!!!

GOING HOME!!!

Tue, 20 Nov 2001 14:50:56 GMT

Hello everyone, i finally get to go home today!! I really want some non-alfred food! Can't wait til thanksgiving. I went out with chris on saturday. To tell the truth it was the most fun i have ever had with anyone. I really like him, and i feel stupid writing it on here but who gives a crap, the only people who ever read this are my j-town friends right? Anyway, we were talking the other day and we both decided that we should just be friends, well he did first but i told him i did too (even though its not really true). I just dont want to tell him that i want to go out with him, and i dont want to say it because i know he can't be in a serious relationship right now. I think it has to do with me living so far away from him (except when im at college) and probably something else im not aware of. I just really want something to come from this because i have never felt this way about anyone.

Well if something is going to happen, i hope it will soon! But im not going to get my hopes up because i dont want to be upset. :( SOO confused, i dont know what to do about this! Anyone have any suggestions?!

Shout out to "friends"

Mon, 12 Nov 2001 17:04:22 GMT

Hey guys i just wanted to say how thankful i am to have all of you as friends, i love all u guys even though ive probably never said or shown it.

"Friends are your true inspiration, follow them and they can lead you anywhere..." ME

I WANT TO COME HOME AND SEE EVERYONE :( !!!

I am alive and well

Mon, 12 Nov 2001 17:02:47 GMT

I was reading my past live journal entries a second ago, and some friends as well. MY GOD i just figured out that i am the most shallow person in the world!!!
This is not another self pitty thing, i would just like to clarify my little part in this world.

Here are my thoughts; While reading a few friends journals i realized that i have it good, and i am complaining for nothing. Just because i can't have a good relationship with a guy doesn't mean anything.
I have realized that my life isn't all as bad as i make it out to be, and i tend to make other people think that it is really that bad. I was wrong for doing this.
Sure i have my problems with my insulin, and little ovary disease, but i am still living, still breating, and not taking advantage of it. There are far more people who have worse problems than me, that i could be possibly helping with. For example, i could make someone feel better about themselves, or just give a random compliment. Do you see me doing that? NO because i was being selfish.
So the next time you hear me complain about my "bad" day because i can't find a man just tell me to shut up because frankly even i don't want to hear it.
I am a changed woman. A more enlightened, unslefish kim who no longer only cares about what is right for her.
Im sorry to all those who felt sorry for me when i was just trying to get some sympathy, not only does it make other people feel bad, but it made me a truly ugly person for doing it when it wasn't such a bad situation.
I hope all can forgive!

): HOPE NO ONE HAS ANY RELATIVES OR FRIENDS IN QUEENS :(

there are no words to describe what i feel!

Sun, 11 Nov 2001 02:24:42 GMT

Hello again. Here comes the usual self pitty ritual by yours truly: Kim
Well tonite my problem is that i will never look like i want to. Unless i lose this god awful crap load of weight and my bones shrink it will never happen.
My second problem is that i am not good at any particular thing, at least i don't think i am. I can't play any sports (well), i can't sing or dance, i don't have anything special about me that makes my life significant. Sure a personality helps, sense of humor, and understanding, yeah great but what is that going to get me in the future?
I saw coyote ugly again today, and it is just so depressing to see that girl, and of course she gets the guy, and the sucessful life! I guess what i want is that, a movie relationship. HUH not gonna happen. I would really like to say it might, but it is so hard. My friend tammie, her boyfriend nick, christina and i went to aldi's today. Tammie is soo lucky to have nick, it made me really jelous that they were kissin, and huggin, and holdin hands THATS ALL I WANT!
Im sorry to have to blab on about my stupid life, but it helps to write it and get it out some how instead of bottling it up like i have for the past 17 years. Thanks for listening or reading, whatever.
Peace K

Softball

Sat, 10 Nov 2001 01:22:41 GMT

Hello peeps. I am thinking about trying out for the softball team! Tryouts are in January so i gotta lot of work to do before then! A LOT OF WORK~ which means i will actually be getting exercize which makes the whole trying out thing worth it even though i have like a 5% chance of actually makin the team. I haven't played softball since i was like 12, and i have never done fast pitch before! I really really wanna make the team, i love playing! I am going to try really hard to work out, and condition my unexercized body to get in shape. And im gonna practice throwing, hitting, and fielding again! GOD I MISS THAT STUFF!
I missed the first meeting already because i really wasn't thinkin about tryin out, now i think i might as well try, i mean what is it gonna hurt? Sure wont hurt my heart it will help, but it may hurt my "heart" if i don't make the team. Well i guess i should have played high school softball! GOD i messed up there!
Anyway, anybody got any tips for me, id love to here em'
Peace K

I don't know what to say

Tue, 06 Nov 2001 06:15:05 GMT

Hello everyone again. I have realized something about myself and a few others tonite!
I have realized that i have more guts than i thought i did! I did something very brave today, and only a few people know what that is; four to be exact. I never thought i would get up enough courage to do it, but i feel sooo much better now that i have. And believe me, to the person this is all directed to, thank you for letting me feel ok about it! It really helps to know you don't think im a retard, just a girl who still wants something to happen from it, but can only dream that it will.
I learned something about my friends as well, i also made a new quote about it so here ya go:
"Follow your dreams Kim, it may lead you no where, but it may get you everywhere" ~SteveOdjo
as well as
"Dreamers may be ever fools, but they're the only ones foolish enough to reach for the stars!" ~SteveOdjo
and
"true friends are your inspiration, follow them and they can lead you anywhere you want to go." ~Kim

I hope the person i was talking to earlier today reads this! I can only hope that someday my "dreams" will come true but i am probably just wasting my time.

Peace K

New quotes! By: Me

Mon, 05 Nov 2001 20:01:04 GMT

"Say something nice about yourself everyday, if you can't find something to say about yourself, say something nice to someone you love." ~Me

"When in life you feel you just can't go on, you can always call ME!" ~Me

"I'll Be here for you if you need me today,
I'll Be here for you if you need me tomorrow,
I'll Be here for you if you need me thirty years from now." ~Me

Shopping Spree

Mon, 05 Nov 2001 16:58:54 GMT

Hello again all you faithful readers...

The next time i am home i am going on a shopping spree, i dont know where i will get the money to go, but im goin anyway. Maybe ill just get some ideas for christmas. Anyway, i am feeling really good about myself lately and i want a new look. Hopefully the usual mall and movie buddies can come to help me with my new look! You know who you are.

I really want to get my hair cut a few inches and highlighted again, then i wanna get some more shoes, some cute socks, and some accessories to go along with it. Ill wait to get some new clothes because i don't know if i will lose any weight (hopefully I will). Anyway It is nice to know someone actually read my last journal entry because it took a lot of guts to say this stuff since before yesterday i thought i was a pile of crap.

Peace K

New shoes make me cute?

Mon, 05 Nov 2001 00:49:38 GMT

Hello peeps! Yesterday tammie, christina and I went to kmart and a few other places cause there was nothin to do. While at kmart i found a really cute pair of boots that i HAD to have. I got them for myself because i have never actually bought something to help me feel good! They were only 14 bucks (can't go wrong there). But what i am really writing this about is because when i was wearing them i realized that I LOVE CUTE SHOES, AND CLOTHES, AND STUFF like that! I just never thought i was one of those girls that was good enough to wear them! Well thanks to Jenn, Heidi, and Justin i have realized that i am more than just a fat girl! I am a girl who cares deeply about her friends, is caring kind and funny, has a great personality (some times) loves to be loved (rarely happens) and yearns to look beautiful on the outside as well as the inside.
Should i have to lose weight for someone to realize that they like me? I mean come on, basically i do! So i decided that i am gonna go along with society and lose this weight so i can become one of the good looking people. I don't know how i have resorted to this theory because i always thought that if you wanted to be like society and not your own person that you are shallow. Well maybe i am becoming shallow because i am tired of being treated like this by everyone.
Just because society sucks, and the pretty girls get the gorgeous guys doesn't mean i can't be happy right?
I think that i deserve to be treated with a little more respect than a piece of flab that can talk.
EVERYONE DESERVES THIS!
And if you think you don't come talk to me, and we will talk it out together, because trust me people...I am goin through the same stuff that u prolly are.
If it is wrong to look like this and feel good about myself i guess i am wrong because i am tired of telling myself that i can't wear this because some guy or girl will think i am too fat to wear it. I am also very tired of society!
Why can't a girl my size be happy, and why can't some nice guy realize that i am more than a piece of fat. I want more than anything to just have a guy love me because i laugh willingly, love faithfully, dream, wish and hope that everyone around me is well and has more happiness than i do. Just once i want a guy to tell me that i am beautiful Not on the outside (because that hasn't happened before until justin) but on the inside and that is why they love me!

I hope with all my heart that everyone out there who has these same awful feelings gets a lil inspiration from this to keep trying, and never give up that hope that someday you will find true love! Because that dream is still goin strong for me, and in my heart i know it will come true...Some day.
I have no idea where i got to talking about this from new shoes, pardon the tangent!

Peace K

Hi

Mon, 05 Nov 2001 00:32:33 GMT

Hi everyone (i have no idea who actually reads these but oh well). I talked to my mom today, she did't seem as mad as i thought she would about my eyebrow! :) Which is great because i love it. It didn't hurt at all. Anyway, just thought id report back on that.

HOW DO YOU GET THE COMMENTS ON HERE? do i have to go somewhere to say that people can comment on them?

CONVERSATIONS AT 2AM

Sun, 04 Nov 2001 07:29:06 GMT

Hi everyone. I just got off aol talking to Heidi. We talked about the usual things like Denny's waiter, those of you who know me know who im talkin about!!! My attempt to go home and see justin failed this weekend! BUT I WILL GO HOME NEXT WEEKEND! Hopefully. College life is great as usual, same ol parties, same ol boring classes. Thats about it! NOTHIN to do here!

I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL AUGUST~~~ C A N A D A ! ! !

Got another piercing today

Sun, 28 Oct 2001 00:07:14 GMT

Hello, i don't know what to say on here, never done it before. I just got back from dannsville, i got my eyebrow pierced!!!! I don't know what to tell my mom yet, she's gonna kill me!